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Monday, 09 February 2009

Happy Chinese New Year... Its Chap Goh Mei!

A roomful of people who I care for tremendously. Not one day has passed without me thinking of all your well-being.
Quoted from couz's blog. Thought of the day. How much I should and would do for my ageing mum.
Love you, mum.

My dearest daughter, the day you see me old I ask that you have patience and above all you try to understand
My dearest daughter
If when I talk to you, I repeat the same things a thousand and one times, don’t interrupt me to point out that I’ve already told you that, instead please just listen to me and remember a time when you were a little girl when I would read to you the same story, night after night until you went to sleep.

When I do not want to have a shower, don’t scold me and please don’t try to embarrass me. Remember instead, a time when I had to chase you with a thousand excuses I invented in order to get you to bathe when you were a little girl.

When you see my ignorance of new technologies, give me the necessary time to learn and please don’t roll your eyes or look at me with a mocking face.

If , occasionally, I lose the memory or the thread of our conversation, let me have the necessary time to remember , and if I cannot do it, don’t become nervous or impatient or arrogant. Instead just know in your heart that the most important thing for me is to simply be with you and have you listening to me.

And when my tired old leges won’t let me walk as before..give me your hand in much the same way I did for you when you made your first steps and when someday I tell you that I do not want to live anymore that I am ready to die.. please do not get angry or upset because one day my dearest daughter, you will understand.

Until then, just try to understand that at my age, we reach a point where we do not want to live anymore. We just exist

When this day comes for me you must not feel sad, or incompetent for seeing me like this. Instead I ask that you be with me , that you try to understand me and that you help me. Help me as I
journey to the end of my life with love..

Tuesday, 20 January 2009

Life - 2009

Wow! Life's been pretty amazing for awhile now. Different, good, wonderful.
I just can't explain. Probably its due to the rush, the lack of sleep, the excitement and changes in life. Work, future, dedication, sacrifices. Ahh... Its a bit too much for me to swallow, but hey! I'm not complaining.
Things are better than what it seems, at least to me it is

Friday, 17 October 2008

I just can't wait

10 days of thrill.
10 days of fun.
10 days of leaving everything behind.
Peacefulness.
I just can't wait, till the plane takes off. Actually, I can't wait till the moment I leave at 6pm today. The beginning of my journey itself is already exciting.
Last night, I printed out my tickets. Thank god I double-checked it. Otherwise.......
Return trip to Langkawi January 2008
OMG! That would be a scene I definitely want to avoid!
There are things that make me a happier person nowadays. It runs along the line of...
"20 metres under sea,
Deafening silence surrounding me..."
But everything do boils down to the fact that there are stuff to think about too..
Well, otherwise... there are other ups and downs... Family issues unsettled. Wedding issue unattended to. House renovation incomplete. Working responsibilities unsatisfactory.
I'm just glad that I took this break for myself. A time to pamper myself. A time to self-reflect. A time to just dissappear from the world.

Sunday, 12 October 2008

What is this feeling?

Butterflies in the stomach...

Friday, 10 October 2008

Unexpected Surprises

What does skating, white water rafting, night calls, alcohol and breakie have in common?
It all boils down to one thing.
Unexpected surprises. What more can I say?